on happy endings

I have always loved happy endings. The type where the bright and shining sun always comes after a frightful, dark, stormy night. Yes, you can say that I'm a fan of happily ever afters, even though I know not everything will be. But, I find solace on the thought that maybe everything will go as planned and be a happy ending.

So, yeah I guess these thoughts come out when one is stressed... (HAHAHHA) Thesis. Thesis. Thesis. I Guess, no rather, I know, I have to work now to be able to finish you on time and hopefully we'll all end this course (fingers crossed) happily.

passing time - my way :)

I have been listening to these songs all day today. One is "Power of Two" by Indigo Girls and the other one is "Will of the Wind" by Jim Photoglo.

They're awesome songs to listen to. :)

....awes.... ome....

Just realized how awesome the people around me are (HAHAHA). They are a unique group of people that I don't think I'll find somewhere else (at least not for now). I mean, they're all unique in their own ways but for some reason we seem to get along pretty well. A friend even told me that, we have different kinds of likes and dislikes in terms of music, books, shows, and the like, but we never seem to clash and I hope that we never will. 

I don't know why, but we seem to laugh at almost anything, even at ourselves.... Like, what happened today we watched a film for a class, it was actually supposed to be a 'heart-warming film' and it actually was but for some reason we find ourselves side-commenting and just trying so hard to contain our laughs for our teacher was there (and I tell you it's pretty hard to stop oneself from letting out a laugh).

(HAHAHA) For some reason, right now I can't imagine myself not meeting these people. If I had taken another course, enrolled in another school, then I would have another set of friends, another lifestyle maybe even another me (?). I can only imagine meeting them somewhere else and not even bothering to talk to them since I don't really know them. I don't think I want that to happen though 'coz I don't wanna be the 'blitz'. :P Darn this senti moments... HAHAHA

if time travel is possible then.....

The notion of traveling through time has always intrigued me. I mean, who wouldn't be, right? I think it would be pretty cool if it is possible and I think I'm not the only one who thinks that way. I mean, would it not be awesome to go back in time to right the mistakes made in the past? It would certainly be great, right? Or would it? For if it's possible then all would've been perfect, right? Or would it ever be perfect?

Correcting the wrong would most certainly be one of the reasons why people would like to go back in time. However, if ever they did go back will they really right their mistakes? Or will they just do it all over again? And if they did correct their mistakes, would they be happy on the choice they made in the end? Given that humans don't usually get contented easily. I mean, one usually finds something that needs improving and what not.

Either way, I think time travel  is cool... But personally, I don't think I wanna go back in time to change things I'm contented with things just the way they are now.

the things we forgot

I came across one of my old journals today and I've re-read what I have written in the past. For some reason reading all those stuff again made me feel a bit proud of myself (HAHAHA). It was like, whoa I wrote this and it's nice? So, yes I'm feeling really proud of myself right now I can't stop smiling. :))

At times, I could be blown away with what I have done in the past. I mean, I think we all do right? Especially, those stuff we totally forgot about. Like my journal, I totally forgot about it or what was in it that I was surprised (in a good way) when I found it again.

I think, I wanna have another journal and write random stuff on it again. Then, maybe a few years after I'll be reading them again and it will once again make my day.

my self-made 'words of wisdom' :)

Its okay to be confused... It simply means that you're thinking about the problem...

drama

I hate those days when you feel so alone, the time when all your problems haunt your thoughts simultaneously and you have no one to talk those things to.  Well, this is one of those days. I’m a pessimist and I know that (but I don’t know if other people know it), though I do strive hard to think positively especially around people I care. I just don’t want them to worry that I myself am worrying. However, I think I also spill negative sides on things when it’s needed if not often enough (HAHA).

Like I said earlier, today was on of those I call "drama" days of my life when I ask myself the stupid question I have been bugging myself for four years now. Why did I decided to take this course in the first place? I don't think I'm cut out for this but it's too late to back out now, now that I'm just a few months away from graduating. I don't wanna disappoint everyone including myself for giving up when obviously I'm 'this' close to finally finish it.

During times like this, I just want to have my high school best friend around. She's one of the few (I tell you very, very, very few) people I cry my heart out to whenever I'm feeling so down and filling my mind with stupid self-pity thoughts. I tell you she's awesome. Before, whenever I feel like I was about to explode I cry my heart out with her, she never really says anything she just sits there silently listening to me wailing about stuff and then when she thinks I’m calm enough she would usually give me that look (the one that says, everything is gonna be alright look). I really miss those moments or better yet, I miss her company, I miss my friend that’s been there for me especially at times like this.

I suddenly want to be in highschool again, back to the time when I have someone to share my thoughts to, the time when I know I'm not gonna cry alone. Right now, I feel like highschool’s been a lifetime ago. Guess I’m really getting old. This is such an emo post but it's fine since nobody is gonna read this anyway.

deadlines

I think one of the most stressing times in a college life (or maybe not just in college) is when deadlines are fast approaching, especially if you haven't done anything yet. I think a lot of people can relate with this.

This has been an on going trend with me and my friends. I really don't know why we like to wait for adrenaline to rush in before we start working. I know it's not a healthy practice (it never was), 'coz when deadlines come  we panic though we usually make ourselves believe that our "crammed" work is always better than the ones we did way before the deadline. That for a fact is true, ask my friends and they'll probably tell you the same thing. However, right now I have to really get things done, that is if I want to graduate on time. I need to follow the work schedule I have set for myself or else...... I don't even wanna think about the or else part... ^-^